My Sister's Keeper

The book was absolutely amazing and brought on many tearful moments that were hidden so no one around could see, but in the theater last night I do not think that I have ever heard so many people crying at once. This movie was absolutely heart wrenching and was wonderful at the same time. I do not know how this is possible. The book was certainly much better than the movie, which was done the best as it could be done. I recommend it all of you out there, and if you go see this movie expect to come out of it questioning what is fair in life and needing oh I would say at least a box of Kleenex. It is an absolute tear jerker that even guys will enjoy, but still is able to posses those tender moments that bring smiles to everyone's faces... I'd say "let's go see it together", but I am not sure that I can handle another breakdown of how unfair things are after ;) Overall I would definitely give it a go

TODD.

so Todd is pretty much awesome. he is the only thing that keeps me going sometimes. YES, he wakes me sometimes in the wee early hours of the a.m. and has lots of hair that covers his whole entire body, but he loves me and I love him. yesterday i decided it was time for a haircut. and well now he looks like an overgrown hamster...EVEN THOUGH when you became my pup you were like half the size of your probably four pound self. he rocks and he is probably going to make the next stage of life a little more interesting and challenging but he's cute and who would want to get rid of that face! KEEP TERRORIZING THE WORLD LITTLE MAN :)

SUNDAY? please.

so sunday used to be my most favorite day of the week. oh how that has changed. I have decided that i almost hate it. i have no desire to do the uplifting things that i once participated in and find myself feeling even more gloomy. i know if i just went to church and pretended to be happy it all come into place, but really the fool that tells you to "fake it 'til you make it" has never had to fake it. faking it brings even more a sense of helplessness and hopelessness than was there when a person just accepts the fact that maybe this is the way that life is supposed to be. i don't know i could be wrong, but that is how i feel. i will never try to tell someone that it really isn't as bad as we all know it is again in hopes that it will fool the poor soul who wants out of their horrible situation. IT ALWAYS IS AS BAD AS WE THINK. and yes don't get me wrong i know that it could be a million times worse so i am thankful that its only as bad as it is and i don't live someone's life who is unlucky enough to less fortunate than i am at the moment. I know things will get better... but when. I am impatient and don't like the guessing game. so please don't keep me guessing.- A

WHAT NOW?

so i've found myself in a world of confusion and uncertainty lately. and i don't know what the heck is going on and i've decided it sucks. and people suck. that's right, it has taken me 21 almost 22 years to realize that people freakin SUCK. no one really cares about you, and if they do its because they profit off of you in some twisted way. you know what. i don't give care what YOU think anymore. take me or leave me the way that i am with all of my flaws and quirks and if that is not good enough you can freakin get out... i'm not playing peoples games anymore.