This is for REAL!

So last week or so I went with Ariana to run an errand and this is what we came across: A 70+ something old man on a razor scooter in a bright orange poncho. so bizarre. I think I may have actually cried when I saw this. It totally made my day and I hope that all of the people that come across this photo have a little extra joy in their day.

You mess with fire...you will get burned.

How many times does it take one to realize that people will not change no matter how many chances you give them. If deep down, they are a shallow person, they will always be that. They may at times change their outward appearance to please your desires to surround yourself with better people...but really they are no different from the last time you said enough was enough. So this is my vow to myself to stop giving those who are undeserving of their fifth or sixth chances. Because yes everyone deserves a second chance. Because yes I've screwed up and taken any second chance that is given to me. But there comes a point when you can cry over people no more. when the friendship no longer outweighs the pain. And as I cried tonight I realized that I no longer need this friend that I have held on so tightly to for so long. I have begun my growing up process and well basically they aren't ready to yet, and are trying to pull me back to their level. but as I was upset tonight I realized that I no longer need to feelings of hurt this individual causes me because I have a group of people surrounding me that are the most amazing people. They are kind and caring and love me in all my bizarreness and I love having people that do not care if I do not always look pristine. Shallowness will only get you so far, so I say farewell to you my old friend because this is my stop. I'm getting off the boat.

Wonderful...

so today was wonderful. actually this weekend was wonderful. I love life. I love my circumstances in which I have been given. yes I have trials that stink! and some of them I still do not understand. but I have been given so much! I honestly have no complaints...at this moment at least. So this weekend I totally bought some great movies! Uncle Buck, My Girl, and Moulin Rouge. all great flicks that I cannot wait to induldge in when i get a moment! on and I got a B on my proposal for my international institutions class! with the possibility of raising it up, words from my professor! love it! absolutely love it :) what else hmm I saw a great movie that was super depressing in the end but I still recommend to all: Glory I think it was. good watch it, but expect to be a little let down. My Roommate ran a half marathon this weekend and did wonderfully! Finishing first in here age group! way to go girlie!!

Peanut Butter...

is really all you need. jelly its nice but really its frivoulous and ehhh. all I need to survive is P.B. and maybe a little oxygen... "How am I supposed to tell you how I feel I need oxygen Oh baby if I was your lady I would make you happy I'm never gonna leave, Never gonna leave Oh baby I would be your lady I am going crazy for you" . this is my realtionship with peanut butter. now you may be asking yourself. peanut butter really? and all I am going to say is THINK ABOUT IT! you'd feel the same way. you really would. but I am not sure that I will ever be able to some how muster up the strength to hold in that much oxygen. its a task. I'm kind of scattered brained and awkward, shy you name it. its probably me. I do not know how I am going to get by the next copuple of days but its really going to be interesting...especially because if I don't change my topic of thoughts/convo ariana is going to KILL me! and rightfully so...because I know I'd probably do the same.

The flowing of the river...

Have you ever awaken in the morning and realized that life is constantly evolving into new stages...weaving people in and out of your story. and felt hopeless. as if there were nothing you could do to stop the flow of traffic, realizing that as much as you care for people or had cared for people they do not seem to return the same desire for friendship. don't read me wrong. when I got up this morning I was tired as heck but in a great mood. why not be? I have a blessed life. the oppertunity to go to school and great living situation and for the most part important people in my life that I could not live with out. what I am asking is... how does someone who means so much to you slowly fade away? How can it be that such am important part of your life can just dissipate into distant memories of laugter and late nights...jokes and adventures. and as quickly as that happens, so many times seeming as if a relationship disappears over night, where are the important people in my life going to be next week? will they still be at my side or will they be off in the distance ever so slightly saying hello in my memory when a familar scent returns or the rhythmic beat of a favorite song plays. I've heard the quote that the lord decides who walks into our lives, but it is our job to make sure those who are important don't ever leave. but what if they do not want to stay? who is to say that you are as important to them as they are to you? what do we do then...

its kind of like the first day of school...

Four Jobs that I've had:
1. Unos. it was in high school. I loved it. super easy and all my friends worked there too.
2. lifegaurd. it was only one season. i disliked it immensely. oh but the tan was out of this world
3. coach. sales girl. great job, great discount. love it.
4. Pei Wei. just started but I have a feeling its going to work.

Four Places I have been:
1. Pearl Harbor, Hawaii.
2. Niagra Falls
3. Florida. my favorite past time. I've probably been there a hundred times. well maybe not that many...but oh the smell of suntan lotion.
4. Mexico. only border towns but still way fun.

Four Favorite Foods:
1. oatmeal. what can I say I'm having a love affair with the quaker guy. I eat it everyday.
2. oranges. sophmore year...oh the memories.
3. grilled cheese. so simple yet so amazing.
4. the white pizza from oreganos. its life changing you need to try it.

Four Concerts I'd like to go to:
1. Jack Johnson. my heart stops thinking about it.
2. Justin Timberlake. enough said
3. one republic. i actually just missed the show because of WORK!
4. the Format.

Four reasons why I love being me:
1. I tell it how it is. gets me in trouble, but its worth it most of the time.
2. I tend to suprise people a lot. I'm not what you expect me to be.
3. I'm just really starting to experience life on my own and am LOVING it.
4. I get to have dance parties to my personal theme song. you can come over sometime and try it.

Four Classes that I wish were offered to and that I could participate in right now.
1. non-awkward techniques 102: I'm totally working on this thanks to brad. I can now sometimes see my awkwardness.
2. Work Ethic 101: How to NOT procrastinate and get ALL of your homework done
3. how to choose between PB&J: they're all amazing but which is best!
4. perception 100: not everything is a big deal relax a little.